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[rubyredrose]

When I remove all the masks, there is nothing underneath. I feel drained and worn by the expectations of who I am supposed to be for everyone, including myself. Somebody had better be there to catch me when I fall, because I just want to close my eyes and sleep. I can't summon the motivation to even care that I don't care. I am empty, a shell without even a vacuum to summon something to fill it. Good night. *thud*

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[ot-atma.livejournal.com]

I wish that I could do it, but while I was reading this I realized that I'm part of the problem..

It sounds like you need a serious vacation. Take a few days off in a row together and get truly and solidly bored on your own, curl up with a good book, draw, paint, or whatever brings you solace. Find out what it is that you do when you aren't even exerting pressure on yourself.

This tug-o-war thing that we've done to you is not kind. )X Call me on your lunch break tomorrow if you want to talk. And if you don't want to, then don't. That part is important.

[asmaria.livejournal.com]

Is it wearing you out that you always come over here? Seriously. I don't understand how you can keep playing mom to us. It means a lot to me, but don't push yourself so hard! *hugs* You always let us rant, cry, eat, whatever with you. When have we let you do that with us? I'm so sorry I haven't been the friend to you that you have been to me. If it's wearing on you, tell me, because I don't want to be a selfish friend.

[ozzy-nelson.livejournal.com]

I seriously need to start checking up here more often, especially since I'm not getting to talk to you as much as I used to. I don't know if I can be of any help, but I hope that you know that I'll always be here to listen if you need to talk. I don't always know the right things to say, but I'll always be a friendly ear. After all, much like Asmaria, you've always been there to listen to me. Please, call me or email me or anything and let me know what's going on.